Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 10:47 AM
smart me got sis to fetch me to work at 850am. i thought its 950am.. thus, i am as early as the security guard of tampines 1. today its like my first time being on time for work.. like literally open the shutters at 10am. hahahas. cos usually i would be late for 15-20 mins.
studied at east coast park with matt on friday night. really by the grace of God, i pulled through yesterday. its my record breaking day. i went 1 day without sleep! (u dont count the 15mins rest i got on the bus while on my way to work) and the most amazing part, i dont even feel sleepy on saturday. reached home at 630am on saturday, bathe and went out by 730am, worked from 8am-2pm, then went down church for duty till night 9pm. but i must say, i did everything yesterday without thinking.. somehow, my brain cant work.. hahahas.
ok.. i need to head back to mugging+work now! :))
Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 6:31 PM
2 tests down with 1 more to go. keep going!
i am currently at home feeling really lazy to get started on accounts which is my only paper for mid semester. i feel like going out, enjoy myself, take a chill pill and all.. but i know i cant and shouldnt. my time is tight and i need to keep a strict time schedule on myself. right now, i am going to start and finish all my accounts chapter tonight so i am can teach matt tml night. i am gg to overnight study with him and give him all my power for accounts. hahahas. i realised i am blabbering nonsense now cos i have an urge to go out but cant.. ohh God.. save me............... GSS is starting real sooonnn... cant wait..... fine.. bing, just shut up abt shopping (you already bought like 2 pair of shorts and 2 tops this week) and get down to accounts and admin stuff.... yes yes!! i can do it like bob the builder!! actually i kinda really hate the cartoon nowadays.. they are no longer cute.. like what thomas and friends, bob the builder, dora.... omg... they aint cute at all.. my generation was like winne the pooh, hello kitty... i think they are way cuter then some trains.. i wonder what get into kids nowadays.. esp thomas.. OMG pls... ok bing enough.. stop it.
"and i am slowly picking up the pieces of my life, fixing it back, one piece at a time"
Tuesday, May 26, 2009 @ 12:18 AM
keep holding on.
Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 11:37 PM
for those who have yet to know, my mum got admitted into hospital on tues night. as of now, she is still staying there, with joints all swollen as an infection in her bone caused all the pain.
though its seems things are just getting tougher, now that i have to juggle so many stuff, i am really glad that i have so many friends that are ever so encouraging and loving me through it all. its really all of their love that gives me the strength to go on. with that, i am thankful. really thankful.
today, much as i experienced great love from my God and friends, i also experienced the other extreme of people that dont love. well.. all i can say... i am a little disappointed but like i said, love its a matter of choice. i can never force anyone to love anybody.. :)
Sunday, May 17, 2009 @ 12:51 PM
back @ shop again.
i was telling cheryl of how recently i feel damm tired and exhausted easily. i dont know why. even when jacq saw me yesterday, she said "i look at your face u like can fall asleep anywhere kind" yes.. i seriously can eat a bowl of tang yuan and fall asleep at 85. hahahs.
was serving external traffic yet again yesterday. realised that despite me doing external traffic for the countless times, i would say i am still not very good at it. there are alot of things that i fail to take note of.. sigh.. but yesterday one amazing thing happened.
i was squating down looking at the pile of prayer list that i placed beside the yellow doors for the entrance for the wheelchair people. the door was closed at the point of time and my half of my body was just right in front of the yellow doors. i totally forgot that the door could open anytime from inside.. cos very few people would do so.. then while squating, somehow, i decided to stand up.. though i have yet to finish the stuff i wanted to do.. and guess what! the very next 1 second i stood up, the yellow door flung open right in front of my face and i stood shocked in front of it. really thank God for his divine protection. if not, i guess i would have laid unconcious on the floor or get one huge blue black on my head.. those yellow doors aint light.. i am really amazed. imagine i hesistated for 1 more second..
this week is gg to be an exciting week! projects to be done and my tests are coming up real soon. mugging would be just round the corner :DD
Monday, May 11, 2009 @ 9:18 AM
do u have dreams?
i do but some of them are dead, some of them are broken while some, i am living in it.
this morning, i had an encounter with HIM. just somehow, i was brought back to remember dreams. all the dreams i have, all those BIG HUGE dreams that i use to dream when i was a child, and of course, he wanted me to remember all my broken and dead dreams. these are the dreams i safely keep in a treasure box and hid it away from anyone's view. this is a secret treasure box that is chuck in a the deepest darkest corner of my heart. i dont wish to ever remember those dreams becos it represents only failure, unfaithfulness in my life.
but all of you know that carrying a treasure box isnt a simple task? the weight of a treasure box is enough to kill you, much more with things placed inside. the amount of effort you need to hide it, it inflicts in you, nothing but fear.
HE then got me to remember a verse that jeff shared with me on saturday,
Gen 2: 7
" .............breathed into his nostrils the
BREATH OF LIFE and man became a
LIVING being."
HE is in a business of digging out broken and dead dreams, breathing his breath of life so that it we would LIVE in all those dreams. if you are breathing while reading this, its becos of his breath you are living. likewise, if you want your dreams to LIVE, then get that breath of life.
still dont believe that it can happen? Me too.
at first i still wouldnt believe that my dreams could be resurrected, he then said to me,
"if you cant even believe in that simple dream of yours coming back alive, what makes you so sure about your salvation, that the holy spirit did raise christ from the dead?"
i couldnt help but surrender my all to HIM again.
friends, let him breath into your life, let him breath into your dreams. Dreams which you never gave a chance to because it seem so impossible. Let God make it possible. Dreams that no one knows, but HE knows as he watches over you everyday. LIVE YOUR DREAMS, not for yourself but for everyone around. People that will be touched by it, people that will be healed by it. you dont need a "America Got Talent" in order for you to step out. RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE, step out! God is your one and only audience/judge, and best of all, he is cheering you on :)
from jeff,
"even IMPOSSIBLE is spelt as I (A)M POSSIBLE!"
Friday, May 08, 2009 @ 1:59 PM
i need this baby. (note: not a want, its a need)
@ 2:29 AM
I HATE PROJECTS. I HATE PROJECTS. I HATE PROJECTS.to self:u r not gg to flare up. chill... you are doing great.
Sunday, May 03, 2009 @ 11:30 PM
today is a badx1000000000000000000000 day. sigh... i just threw away $110 just like that. the funny part was when i told my sis, "girl, i threw $110 away today.... " she replied, "wah! where you throw at?" hahahahahahs. she really thought i literally throw $110 away. sigh... i could pretty well cover it up and no one would ever find out, but its my integrity that i am paying for. i just hope boss would show forth more of her favour upon me and take pity on me. just praying for a miracle to happen. $110 is like my two days salary. damm it.
while the day started out in a pretty bad manner, i am really grateful for friends that stick by me.
matt came over especially just becos i told him i am having a bad day. he totally surprised me cos i was still texting him when he appeared right in front of my shop. Moreover, its what was in his hands that made me thrilled! Bakerzin strawberry shortcake and 4 macaroons! (FYI: BAKERZIN STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE IS TO DIE FOR! it sends you straight up to heaven when u take a bite of it! its awesome!!! you are missing out ALOT if u have yet to try it) OMG! i was totally grinning at the cake when i opened it. passerbys must have thought this shop assistant is crazy. but whatever. i had pictures taken but i have no idea how to upload photos using my quite new nokia phone. THANKS MATT!
later at night, han xian dropped by and bought subway cookies! sinful. i ate like 4 subway cookies today. ahahas. thanks hx!!
just before i go off, a sentence which i read in Jodi Picoult's book, Picture Perfect. i thought its really romantic.
"with all the stars as witnesses, i would tell you that i love you"
